nothing goes the way I imagined
Journal Entry: Wed Apr 30, 2008, 7:32 PM
- Listening to: Coldplay - The Scientist
When you try your best
but you don't succeed
when you get what you want
but not what you need
when you feel so tired
but you can't sleep
stuck in reverse
Tonight I will be rejecting my admission to my dream college.
After stressing out for four years, after all my time spent studying instead of enjoying high school, after all the effort and tears I put into all nine of my college applications and essays, it all concludes with me going into a backup school I was automatically accepted into from the beginning.
I'd always pictured my college life to take place at a very traditional, old New England style college, complete with old style architecture, a large courtyard, elegant dorms tucked inside of a bustling city. Ever since my sister's college graduation, I'd dreamed out that picturesque outdoor graduation, underneath the warm sun and perfect blue sky with just the right amount of clouds. Instead, I will be attending a school in which, at my first glance, I thought "This looks like a prison." A college where the graduation takes place inside a tiny gym; even my own high school graduation isn't taking inside of our gym.
I had a chance at all this. I had a chance at my dream. But, after living through four years of my parents paying full tuition for my sister to attend the most expensive college in the US and hearing their subtle complaints and regrets, I will not burden them with another $50k+ college. I will sacrifice my dream, a dream so close it was almost tangible but slipped away.
Sometimes, though, I wish I could be a bit selfish.
Nobody said it was easy
no one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start
Devious Comments
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Oh Mein Gott!!
I want something good to die for, to make it beautiful to live.
i feel so olldddd now
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not one expression on that face
would ever give her game away
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"Aqueles que passam por nós, não vão sós, não nos deixam sós. Deixam um pouco de si, levam um pouco de nós."
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its a new dawn
its a new day
its a new life
for me:
and I'm feelin' good.
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It's really amazing
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playing
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Gremlins always on the go,always positive and constructive.
Always the gremlins you know. Gremlin
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Gremlins always on the go,always positive and constructive.
Always the gremlins you know. Gremlin
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Gremlins always on the go,always positive and constructive.
Always the gremlins you know. Gremlin
that image is breathtaking, and the poetry attatched to it is so gorgeous i cant even say.
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i had a rusty spade
but im not the fighting sort
if i was samson id find that harlots blade
and cut my own hair short !
then in a market dimly lit
i come casually to pay
you see my coins are counterfeit
but accept them anyway
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